Lost in Thoughts All Alone

  Series Title: Saint Seiya One Shots or Who The Hell Came Up With This Crap
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Chapters: 1/?
Pairing(s): Milo/Camus, Shaka/Risa, Mu/Hana, Aiolos/Saga, Deathmask/Aphrodite, etc.
Fandom: Saint Seiya
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The characters of Saint Seiya dealing with everyday things.

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1. Changing a car light (Milo)
2. Buying cell phones
3. Multiplayer Video Games
4. Grocery shopping
5. Working retail
6. Sleepovers
7. Single parent moments (Mu feat. Kiki)
8. Sick (Milo, keeping a high fever a secret from Camus)
9. Insurance companies (Milo)
10. Drinking problems (Deathmask)
11. Clothes shopping (Aphrodite)
12. Movie night
13. Decorating for Halloween
14. Decorating for Christmas
15. Cold showers

NaNoWriMo is approaching and will be here in less than a month. I've toyed with the idea of trying it again. My muse hasn't been able to focus on one story or even commit to an opening of any story I start. Maybe NaNoWriMo is the push I need. I have several ideas and I'm not sure if I should try to do just one or multiple stories. These are the ideas I have, with Crimson Shadows being the only non-fanfiction story.

Amid the Falling Snow - Hyoga/OC Fanfiction. Everyone knows that Camus trained Hyoga and Issac. What only a few know is that he had a third student - a girl by the name of Lina. Her talent with the ice surpassed both Hyoga and Issac but Camus would not let her be in line for Cygnus. She was talented with ice but feared her own power. Despite this, she became a sister to them in the same way Hyoga and Issac were brothers. There was a chance for her to be more to Hyoga, the one she was closest to but after Issac died, she vanished. Years later, the Bronze Saints are sent on a recon mission in Russia and Hyoga finds a woman chained and bound in a frozen cell. To his surprise it is Lina.

In the Light of Hope - Takeru/Hikari Fanfiction. No ideas for plot but set in Digimon Tri time. Takeru and Hikari are in high school, the older kids are in college. Note: Yamato and Takeru are 4 years apart in age.

Crimson Shadows - Michael/Cecilia. Cecilia is a spy, known for being too good at what she does. In a different time, a different life she lived in the light. After 12 years, she returns to her hometown under the name of Amber Scorpio. It isn't until she sees Michael Hamilton again that she begins to live again.

Destiny of the Stars - Shaka/OC Fanfiction. Risa was sold to Death Queen Island at the age of 4 and spent her life as a slave. She was always different from the other girls, surrendering to their fate. She believed, stronger than she knew why, that her fate was not to be a slave for all of her life. When the Phoenix rose, she took it as a sign. Her captors had beat her for years for trying to escape. It had been years since her last escape. She knew that perhaps, this time, she would make it. They would chase her but she had a destination this time: Greece and the home of Athena's Saints. There, just maybe, she would find a place to call home.

 It's almost September and I can't wait! After two years in this hell of a house we are finally getting the hell out of here. Today (Friday since I haven't slept yet) marks two weeks to Moving Day and three weeks to Kitteh Day.
I absolutely can't wait. There's something else. I found this journal/sticky note organization method. I want to start it come September. I view Halloween/Samhain as the beginning of a new year since I live by the Witch's calendar but September is starting a new chapter of my life. There are a few things I stopped doing after I moved here and I want to get back into them. The first is my worship of the Greek gods and being a good Pagan. I haven't had an alter set up in a long time. The second is journaling. Sure, I'd make a post here and there and mostly about my knitting. I used to regilously update my journal when I had Livejournal. I'm not saying I'm going back to LJ - I just want to talk about my day or what I'm thinking about somewhere. It might be here or in a journal I keep in my purse at all times. Something like that. This is the perfect time to start doing that.

Well. It is 5am and I need to get to sleep. I've probably completely messed my sleep up this weekend. Again. Sigh.

One of the things I got for my birthday was Animal Crossing: New Leaf. I bought it for myself because I really just needed to have it. I spent a month on the first town I made and the decided that it was really spread out too much and I didn't like it. Plus I had to cross two bridges I had built to get most places in the town. I restarted my town on the 21st but I do time travel a lot because there is only so much you can do in one day. Where it is the 24th here, on my game it is the 28th. That isn't so bad. I stalk the new leaf tag on tumblr a lot and I've seen some pictures of a town with snow.

Starting today, I'm going to post updates both here and on my tumblr about what I've done in animal crossing for the day. 

 It's been awhile since I've really used this journal. I miss it. I haven't had a journal that I updated like I did my LJ in years. I think in part I stopped updating because I was used to LJ where I had a bunch of people who might respond to what I said. But a journal is a journal, if other people read it or not. Long ago I was a kid who would keep written journals and did again when I was in high school. It would be kind of nice to keep a written journal again but I'm not somewhere I can do it right now. 

Anyway. Good things are happening.

Yesterday I turned in four applications to possible jobs and have just as many to do online. Of the places I turned them into, the two places that would be my first pick gave me positive responses. The Bath and Body Works manager said that she was making the schedule for interviews for the next week and I should be hearing something within the next week. Eddie Bauer's assistant manager was really happy to see that I had open availability. If I don't hear anything from her within a week I'll call her to check back. I turned one in to Claire's but I'm not sure how happy I'd be about working there. But the manager there said she was full staffed so I don't have to worry about working with kids all day. 

If I can get a non-seasonal job here in Richmond where my brother lives then I can move back here and things will start to happen again. I moved back to mom's because my seasonal job at Jackson Hewitt was over and she promised things would happen like she would teach me how to drive and sew. The sewing only happened because I forced it. And only to the point where I can make simple bags but nothing else. Well, I can follow patterns but stuff like zippers and circular things like a bag for my trindle seem just so complicated to me. Justin does have a sewing machine so he could teach me. He's already started my redone lessons in driving. We were going to do more but his car is throwing fits and we're both worried it is about to die on him. That's something to figure out later today. 

I'm really glad it feels like my life is moving forward again. I spent two and a half months back at mom's and I nearly went insane from the lack of ability to do things on my own, even if I did get a lot of knitting done.

My precious Jae's birthday is today~ ♥ I really want to buy his latest CD, but I can't yet because I just don't have the money for it. There is a part of me that wants to spend the extra money to get the edition that comes with a poster but living in this house, not even my brother has really put stuff on the walls. I would be really sad too, if I put it up and then when I'm able to get an apartment or something, ruin it when trying to take it down. But still, JAE. I especially want the new CD because its Jae's solo CD.

I miss him being with TVXQ sometimes, especially because I haven't kept up with what he's doing. However, what I've read makes me think he's doing well for himself, the same with Junsu and Yoochun which makes me really happy. I'm also glad they stayed together the three of them but have still been able to branch out on their own. My boys. <3

(and yes that is a really old picture of Jae. I haven't gone photo searching of him in years.)

Life Goals
Obtain my license
Get a job
Work on getting a car

I want to say, "Move back to Richmond" and while all my life goals are working towards that, I don't want to be like "YEAH I CAN DO THIS WITH NO CAR" so while that's the ultimate goal, I'm not making it a 2013 goal. If it happens, all the better

Knitting/Crochet
12 hats in 2013
12 mitts in 2013
12 socks in 2013
12 amigurumi in 2013
12 scarves in 2013
12 bags in 2013
Work on learning new crochet techniques with the Sky Blanket which is also a blanket square a day

Writing
One chapter per month of whatever story I'm working on.

 They were in the same room and yet, his Aara felt a thousand miles away from him. Ever since they were reborn and became aware of who the other was, Kuronue had hoped they could make a new life together. However Aara was having none of that. She would hardly look at him, barely speaking to him. Her anger was so much easier to deal with than the silent treatment. When she first realized it was him, Aara had been angry, very angry. She'd lashed out at him and he'd taken it without a fight. He deserved as much.

"Forever you said! You liar! You promised! You swore to come back to me! I TOLD you not to go, that there was something wrong! But you didn't listen to me! Of all the times to not listen!" Aara growled and slapped him. 
"No matter what I do or say, I can't take that back now Aara. You and I both know that. But believe me when I tell you that one decision is the one I've regretted for years."
"Years as a human maybe." She growled at him. "You didn't have to live with the aftermath of what you did."

If only... there was something that he could do or say. At this point, he'd do anything. Kurama hadn't been much either. All the older fox had said was that this was something the two of them had to work out on their own. He did, however, explain to Kuronue just how much Aara had suffered in the years after Kuronue's death until one of her enemies had caught up to her. Kurama had gotten there at the very end but didn't step in to save her. She had looked at her brother as she was dying and smiled at him. 'She said to me, I'm going to find him now. I can't live in this world without him.' Kurama had told him. 'My sister hadn't lived for the six years since your death Kuro. Her spirit, the thing you loved most about her died with you.' Kuronue hadn't been able to reply to that because he knew it was true. If their roles had been reversed, he suspected that the same would have happened to him.

When Aara looked up from the book she was reading, Kuronue looked away and tried to act like he was busy cleaning his scythe. What he didn't see was her eyes sadden. She knew he was upset and wanted to fix this. She wanted to fix it but she didn't know how. 18 years in a human life and six years of a demon life without him. It is better to have known love and lost it than to have never loved at all is how the saying goes. She's not sure she agrees anymore. Their love shined so brightly that when it was gone, she had nothing left to give. For 24 years she's been stuck in that same moment, the moment she felt Kuronue die. Even with him right next to her, knowing that it's him, hasn't done anything to erase the constant pain. Her brother has warned her that she needs to be careful to not let her anger waste the time she and Kuronue have together as humans. He's right, he's always right. She knows it. 

And then there's the scythe. Kurama brought two things back to her the night Kuronue died. The pendant he had died trying to keep out of the hands of their enemies and his final scythe. The others he had once had were lost that night. Now he will spend all night and day polishing that thing to perfection. She can't stand the sight of it because it hurts almost as much as if he were forcing it into her heart. She sighed and closed the book she'd been trying to read. It's been two weeks since she realized Kuronue's human identity and ever since, he's always been in her thoughts, haunting her worse than ever before. She looked at the coffee table where a vase of freshly cut roses were arranged nicely. One by one each rose began to turn black and then as if someone had taken the vase and thrown it, it shattered.

"Aara?" Kuronue's attention was on her and this time, she couldn't keep up the ice around her heart. She said nothing but a tear slipped down her cheek. And the another and another until she was sobbing. The next thing she knew he had moved from the chair he was in and was on the couch next to her. He pulled her into his arms and she clung to his shirt.

"Aara, my sweet Aara. Talk to me. Tell me something."
"...It hurts."
"What does?"
"My heart. I... I can't..."
"Aara..."
"You're right here next to me but all I can see and feel is that moment. The moment when I lost you forever. I can't get past it."

He had been afraid of this. Kurama had not said but hinted to it. She was locked in that moment, unable to live past it because the pain of losing him had been too much. He didn't say anything at first but held her tighter. When her sobbing had slowed some, he pulled back and kissed her forehead. She looked at him and he smiled slightly, wiping away her tears.

"Aara my love, listen to me. I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere. And you need to remember this now and forever. Forever isn't just until the end of the lifetime we are living now. It is until the end of time. No matter the names we have and the forms we have, we will always find our way back to each other. I love you Aara and that will never change."

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Okay, don't laugh. I wrote this while listening to the song SOS from the movie Mamma Mia. There are so many songs I could probably write one-shot Aara/Kuronue fanfics to. I've been tempted to do that actually, make a chaptered fanfic with several one-shots of Aara and Kuronue to the songs that remind me of them. I had this perfect name for the title but I can't remember it now. >_<;;

 I have about 5 more presents left to make to complete my list of knitted presents. Wait, no. Six. I KEEP FORGETTING QS. I'll be glad when they're all done though. I'm getting tired of knitting for other people, I want to knit for me again! And my advent scarf is terribly neglected... 

The Present List
Finland Bag (Aqua)
Roxas Original DS Bag (QS)
Basic Beanie (Rae)
Gretel (Yas)
Bamboo Gloves (Justin)
Norwegian Star Beanie (Norge)
Crocus Scarf (Finny)
Nottingham (Mum)
Dragonback Socks (Nova)
Paupu (Riku)
Reading Mitts (Kamui)
Ribbed Kneehighs (Leyna)
Moody Stockings (Alli)

I still feel like I'm forgetting someone... Not in the to do but in the already done pile. I didn't actually make anything for- oh yeah. Alli! I mean, her present probably won't get done until after Christmas, just like Leyna's. However, they're still presents. Okay, added. Um. I honestly think that's it this time. I have absolutely no idea what I'd make Dad. He lives in Florida and doesn't wear knitted stuff often because he's usually out in the field playing with snakes or messing with his dogs and knows I'd kill him if what I make him gets messed up.

Still.  6 presents left to go and 12 days left? That's not bad considering I wasn't originally going to do presents for Christmas. Usually I'm happiest making presents for birthdays or whenever I feel like and just giving them.